Dawn M. Nevills "A Moment of Your Time - Phase II"
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Tuesday, October 22, 2024
A.G.O. Whistle Stop - Time, Eyes Ears, Mouths and Years: Meet Earnest and Earnestine, still in Love.
One slightly larger than the other; slightly lower; slightly higher:
Lopsided, imperfect, aureola all over, interspersed with jiggling.
Real Jello, perplexing and preposterous, and pensive,
Pert and pouting ....sighing tiredly.
"Breasts don't sigh", you say. We have never argued this point before. There have been far too many others which seemed more relevant:world hunger, your haircut, me insisting on wearing a bra. My face flames, remembering the wicked words.
Then, seeing your lie, hanging in midair, you follow the sound.
Wind has passed between us, air shared, bettered, slightly bluish,
Bubbling and blown into larger glass versions of itself....
like breasts.
"They're not like cows", you say, seriously, searching. "I feel sorry, that bulls have no hands."
You are a silly man, and deserve to be punched, but aren't. This is Woodstock wishing, after all, and you have simply regressed into simplistic terms again,
momentarily. Besides, it's lovably honest, and unaffected - and earnest, like you.
And you have doctor's hands when you place them on breasts: reverent, exquisite, painting them on to themselves again, like a Creator.
All that pre-talk of hookers has made me nervous, standing so close, staring at the
shapes in the frame, with you blowing in my ear like that.
"Be subtler, dammit", I murmur, staring at the painting, ignoring you.
"You're far too short to speak like that", you say, mildly, kissing the back of one of my earlobes. "You're a terrifying woman". Then you smile, placing your arm gently about my waist, and turn your face towards the breasts again.
You've just noticed they have eyes in them. Picasso reigns.
Sunday, October 20, 2024
Tuesday, September 10, 2024
Bear Jest...A Story in Parts Several by Dawn M. Nevills Part 1 The Meeting.
The tiny transistor he has propped up on the headrest of the seat in front of him, passenger side, rather naturally mists into a memory too soon, the forlorn wail of Chet Baker and Angel Eyes fading into crackle, static, and omnipresent conscience.
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He watched her face for a moment, holding his finger to his mouth, perplexed. He was uncomfortable, in control of himself, as usual.....and.....not, suddenly. He rubbed the back of his neck. The hairs had begun to stand on end.
She was not terribly attractive, he decided, but ....interesting, to him: stimulating. When she turned, suddenly, to reveal a surprising swell of breast, he felt a surprise surge, and cleared his throat. Suddenly, she looked up - and straight into his face, enquiringly, the spectacles framing an amused and twinkling gaze. It was a rather unusual first connection between eyes. He knew, with complete certainty, that she knew he had an erection. She smiled at that exact instant.
She blew on her tea, comfortably, leaning back in her chair. She was tired - and completely at ease. He was not. He wanted to grab her tea, suddenly, and throw it out the window.
"Why me?", he said, at last, quietly.
"You required me", she said, softly, without a beat. Then she resumed drinking her tea, nonplussed. He didn't know what to say, next. He hadn't expected her to answer. He was still hung over.
"You're very odd", he said, relenting.
"No", she said, gently, "I just don't need anything from you. That's probably something which you are distinctly unused to, in a woman, I expect." She looked at him kindly - not patronizingly - and cocked her head slightly to one side.
"Hung over?" His face went slightly warm, and it made him annoyed. She continued.
"..."besides"....she looked at him, appraisingly, and her voice was a little softer, now..."you're very sweet."
"How do you know?" He was embarassed at blurting out something at her. He never did things like that. His cheeks were flaming, and his head began to pound out a two step.
"I"....I have no idea why I just blurted that out. I don't even know you."
She was totally unfazed. Her smile was enigmatic. Her eyes had a green glint to them, suddenly, and flashed in the afternoon sunlight of the dingy little cafe like a mild tornado warning. He felt rather lightheaded, looking at them.
"You obviously needed a response, that's all. We used to do that all the time for each other, as human beings, before the stifling constraints of social habit intruded rudely into our natural inclination to communicate." She stopped speaking, abruptly, and sipped at her tea, the statement at an end.
"....before it became an oddity of mechanics, devoid of purpose, art, love, question, or conceit."
She paused, as he stared at her, wide awake, now. She continued.
"There is, after all, more art to medicine, than the pure science we are told results in healing. It is in the art that the healing comes. It connects to itself, in another human being: the mechanics merely provide the vehicle by which we follow instructions to proceed. We respond to that, as we allow the other "mechanics", and tools of purpose, to work on our ills, you know......" She clamped her mouth shut, sitting back, mildly, and took a long swallow of liquid, holding the cup firmly, and staring at him, interestedly, over the top of it, through her spectacles.
His mouth was slightly ajar, and his hair was sticking up, where he had run his hands through it. His headache had begun to recede. A little sound of air escaped him; a kind of laugh/breath/gush of air, as if he wasn't aggravated, wasn't disgusted - only completely unknowing, as to what to do next, rather like an apologetic fart: unnecessary, and explanatory.
"Have we met?" he blurted out, suddenly, again. "I mean..of course we've met. I just remet you. I mean...Geez, it's like Spock, or something...I ..find you...I ...don't know what I find you. Do you always speak in paragraphs, like that?"
Suddenly he turned, to find the waitress standing openmouthed behind the counter, coffee pot in mid-pour. She looked at him, earnestly, pouring his coffee carefully, in direct opposition to her hasty, urgent whisper, audible within a twenty foot range.
"Mister, she's been coming in here for months. She doesn't say a damned thing. All she does is read." She looked at the bespectacled one, apologetically. "Sorry ma'am; didn't mean to be rude." She slammed the coffee pot back on the burner, and scurried into the back of the diner. The woman with the spectacles laughed softly.
"Well, I did order."
"Bataille, is it? A somewhat....determined choice, if a little overt, in mixed company."
She began to giggle, uncharacteristically, got up from her chair, walked towards him, picked up the book, gently moved his hand from his head, kissed his face beside his left eye, where he had bashed himself, pulled up his sweater unceremoniously, stuck his shirt in his pants with her hand, pulled the sweater back down, as he stood there, shocked, smiled at him, and swung out of the cafe in a slightly halting, but determined, stride, as if she was fighting off an old injury.
He was still standing there, when the waitress walked back in.
"What's her name?" he said, finally, clearing his throat, as the waitress moved to the table where she had been sitting to clear the cup.
"I got no idea", she sighed, chomping at her gum. "Pays in cash. 'Cept she always leaves a tip, though." She winked at him, while he smoothed his hair back, and touched his hand beside his eye, suddenly.
"She'll be back next Saturday morning, for breakfast, 'bout nine".
He blew her a kiss, as he walked out the door, whistling. He'd never gone out for breakfast before; he was looking forward to it.
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......."Don't worry; be happy." The whistle was what he heard first, as he bashed his head against the door, waking to rub the side of head, the glowing green lights of the radio the only reminder of company, in the damp of the night.
"Shit", he said, softly, and laid back on the back seat, holding his head with both hands. He could still feel her lips on his face.
Thursday, February 22, 2024
The Spoils of War
True it is, that Rage feeds Evil,
And all the appetites that urge a man to live are twisted into darkness, in the doing,
Till even hunger, mined into a Pit of Wound, and tossed a weapon maggot into the seething chasm, feeds upon Itself,
While the gold of busy Death is smelted with Men's bones.
No light enters here; no blinking morning birds; no misted hills awash with greyed and tremulous dew,
Cooling the molten shrieks of maw and groan.
The dry and rock-strewn ground is churned with builder's dust,
And Men's "blood of endless new bloodings" stirs a grim and writhing mix of fluid and stone.
No corner anchor here,
Fulcrum-rich with echoed song, and storied awe,
Only grinding steel, and teeth, and flash, and shriek, silent in the ink, 'till even the canopy of Heaven
Would hide its True Star from Death's Jealous Touch,
And Shroud the exploding fingers of steel with
Omnipotent, Relentless, Defiant Tears of
Tumult's Absence, in
Mute, "Scream painted transmit", Celestial chiding, at the
Doings of Men.
Sunday, November 5, 2023
The Nature and Reason of Commandment by Dawn M. Nevills
I want to talk, today, about what it is like to be without those you love, and how this affects any community, no matter who it is, what they wear, what prayers they say, or who they say they hate.
It might surprise you to know that those you have painted as worthy of a hate brush - your hate brush - do not hate you, wish you harm, wish you death, or wish you anything harmful at all: just freedom, safety, and mutual respect.
I want to talk about thinking for yourself, apart from the fashionable, the misunderstood, the misinformed, and the misrepresented in society.
I want to talk about how real political representation recognizes goodness no matter where it is, hatred of the innocent for what it is - abusive and exploitative, even when someone is doing this to YOU (and it is always made easy, like many defenseless targets caught in the grip and fervour and rage of war) - and the idea of Love and Hope amidst conflict.
I want to talk about possibility, and the Angels of our better natures, and the light and dreams and hopes of our youths, undiminished and shining brightly in our hearts, even now.
I want to talk about Belief.
I want to talk about what envy does to a life of hard work and struggle, crushed in a moment of rage and jealousy, theft and destruction. I want to talk calmly, about the ten commandments:
1. You shalt have NO OTHER GODS before Me.
2. You shalt NOT worship an idol.
3. Do not take the Lord's name in vain.
4. Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it Holy.
5. Honour thy father and thy mother.
6. Thou shalt not commit murder.
7. Thou shalt not commit adultery.
8. Thou shalt not STEAL.
9. Thou shalt NOT BEAR FALSE WITNESS. (LIE OR MISREPRESENT ANOTHER PERSON, OR FALSE TESTIMONY ABOUT THEM, THEIR CHARACTER, OR THEIR PERSON)
10. Thou shalt not COVET.
(COVET - one of the most difficult of the commandments during difficult times, and requiring tremendous self restraint, selflessness, and thought for others - is what one does when one is jealous of another's life, home, wealth, goods, family, children, wife, husband, income, life, country, perceived prosperity, and way of life, especially to the extent that you commit a sin against #8. In rage, when venting against another, and against perceived injustice, regarding the goods and property, life and prosperity of another that you feel YOU should have, COVETOUSNESS is used by all that is evil to convince you that your NOT having something is justification for you to destroy, steal, ruin, or deny access to someone else's.
It is pervasive in society today, along with a sense of entitlement, a lack of respect for other human beings, and a lack of understanding about what someone has gone through, in their lives, to achieve even a modest measure of success and comfort for themselves and their families.
We may never know what someone else has gone through, but victimizing and revictimizing people, even as they receive some measure of comfort from the first victimization, is spiritually excruciating, and not only repeats the offense, but mocks the idea that even some small comfort to help the person victimized should be free from those who prey upon the grieving, the damaged, the injured, the afflicted, and the anguished in what can only be described as a deeply savage attitude towards grief and loss.
Revictimizing people is simply soul destroying, and justifying further exploitation of those already damaged can only be characterized as a breach of trust in everything that is decent and good about Men, when they attempt to offer at least a semblance of compassion and comfort after loss. This is particularly terrible when it occurs towards the aging, the widowed, the injured, and children in society, and indicates a deep sickness towards the helpless and in need of support and safety in a decent and civil society. This avarice, lack of caring and concern, and disdain for those perceived to be "weaker and open to be exploited" speaks volumes about a perverted, decaying, and immoral society, and its effects upon the moral character of its members.
Hitler's government used jealousy of the goods and perceived prosperity of the industrious Jewish population to fuel rage, theft, destruction and confiscation of their goods, property, and very lives, instead of correcting the government's incompetence in providing programs, services, and incentives to promote industriousness, growth, and prosperity in society, choosing instead to direct their dissatisfaction, rage and anger at government incompetence and unconcern with the plight of the people at a targeted group of people whose work ethic, prosperity, and opportunity provided a convenient diversionary target.
After some quiet thought....how many of you have actually learned the TEN COMMANDMENTS for the very first time, understood the challenge and impact of them on your own lives, and with that understanding, how a personal decision to incorporate them in one's own life changes it, instantly, along with the lives of those around you?
Who reading this has wished joy for another person, celebrated another's accomplishment, wished unrestrained joy to another human being, and felt joy at another's happiness, totally apart from any effect or gain to one's own life, other than this sense of happiness? Can you remember what that felt like, and how it awakened hope in you for a better world, and a better way of life for all?
How many clearly understand the impact, helplessness, and frustration which is exploited by terrorists, in order to do further damage to the people they say they represent - while killing them, instead of "representing and giving determined voice" to them? It is terrible enough to be betrayed, but to betrayed by one's Savior is to be crucified without Hope, eternally. Terrorism is truly Satanic darkness, realized.
Tuesday, February 7, 2023
Queen of Soil
The Queen of Soil
I've not yet met The Queen of Soil, Peculiar that she is,
(I understand she had a mole, that had its own weird frizz.)
In layered terms, no one is sure, just where the orb sprang forth,
But "Sure as Hell", my neighbour says, he's "damned sure they're up North."
Dawn M. Nevills
Saturday, October 29, 2022
Consumed as Foundation Written Awkwardly
Whist wind, thou dost deceive.
Green shield groves smite the carte blanche sereptitude, servitude, slander, slavery.
Drop the tears of God into the parched and vapid, moaning in repressed cages,
Offered and offering solutions of finality, brutish and braying,
The leap and twirl glow in their eyes surgically removed
With precision and respect for demand, which
is a yawing chew of
Bones,
Unsatiable, like a
National Treasure of Death.
Wednesday, October 12, 2022
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Thursday, September 8, 2022
A Queen Ascends
Duty and service to the least among us, and God commandeth a Leader: thus, a Monarch is realized, with Love and Filial Service, unquestioned.