NASA Image of the Day

Saturday, October 24, 2020

Stories of the Sea - for Mur and Me ...39 years oct 23, 1981 "For the Blue Mermaid". xo

Monday, October 19, 2020

whirl away world

 whirl away, world

between the plates the air will sigh and furl

the tears will tickle soft between the stones

and man will pause to 

listen and

consider them again

humbly



dawn m. nevills 

Tuesday, October 6, 2020

You are IMPORTANT! - a 3 STEP COVID-19 DANCE mOVE.

 Please: the greatest gift you can give to those you hope to assist, represent, care for, listen to, understand,

debate with, support, comfort and encourage....is to make sure you are here to do so. 

1. When in close quarters, or when arms' length - and more - is simply not possible...WEAR A MASK.

These are not "just like always" days. This virus WANTS you to die...that is its purpose, goal and agenda.

2. STEP BACK, NOT FORWARD. This is against the normal grain, comaraderie, earnestness, and tradition of the average North American, and is a very difficult shift in behaviour. Lives depend upon you learning to express affection, concern, bewilderment and support in other ways: try a little humour when you try these new means of expression. The bow, the wink, the invisible fist punch, the Airforce thumb, and the two-handed heart - as well as the gentle pat against your own heart - can convey, with practice, the feelings we wish we could express in the same old ways as we always have. The step back will be a step back into cautiousness, and your own, and others', protection. Let's all learn a new dance step - followed by a smile, or a thumbs up, or any of the above. You could even add a little two-step, just for a humourous "step ahead" of a virus intent on killing you. 

3. Lead with genuineness, but in the knowledge that no one is invulnerable, and your presence is NEEDED, in the fight. You deserve your own concern - and so do others. This restraint is all about LIFE, not a contest between HE - MEN. No one wins if you are dead.  PLEASE....STAY AND HELP!

Monday, September 21, 2020

All Souls Weekend - with Steve Roach

 https://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=steve+roach&docid=607991632160556657&mid=692DEB8D2EE2E8F63941692DEB8D2EE2E8F63941&view=detail&FORM=VIRE

Just Be

 If there is love and light, then letting it shine is To Be.

If we are to be, then being is always Something, even if we think we are Nothing.

From Nothing came Let There be Light.....and there Was.

It was Spoken. It was Done. 

We Be.

Nothing Can be Done because when we know Nothing, 

There is always Something to be Learned.

Nothing sure is Something, ain't it?✌😇

Friday, August 14, 2020

Wished Upon

 Trail on, streak of thought.

Wide is the gap upon which these threads of being surface,

Dappled, as they are, with quarks and quicks and manytimesagos;

Brilliant spasms of new molds sprinting like sprites

Across a vast mindfulness. 

Trill, then, past ego whirls and caped and capping fury;

Beyond, where the vast and varied treeseeds sparkle,

Breathing my name.   

Thursday, August 6, 2020

Fly..........a little anguished wish for Joy and Encouragement

http://www.thekaraokechannel.com/online/karaoke/community/Dawn-M.-Nevills/Nicki-Minaj-Rihanna/Fly-%28Duet%29/r_645199

Friday, July 24, 2020

Messenjah 02 Shagnatty Dread

Be a Global Parent with Unicef

PEACE. I would have peace for my Friends.
I would have Peace for their dark-eyed babies, their blue-eyed babies, their hazel-eyed babies,
dreaming softly of a star-filled sky, far away from the wretched ground, beckoning;
The reeking puddles; the squalor; the shrieking.
I would have peace for the pang of hunger; the stab of thirst; the anguished heart, languishing and bereft, believing itself Forgotten.
I would have Peace for the Angry woman hearts, whose Mother love knows no boundaries, no borders, no languages: only cries and whimpers, seen, heard and unfound.
The quiet Father love prayers, that strengthen other Men, restrain anger and violence, renew fierce Friendship, and make a way where there seemed none amidst such seeming Power in the world, to make it so.
They are Global Parent tears; Global Parent Hearts: they speak all languages, love all names for God, clasp each other's hands in shared Grief, and remembered Joy.
I would have Peace for these Women, even now; I would have Peace for their injured, aching, saddened, strong-but-tired Men, their Lost or Living Lovers, their stolen Babies.
I would have Peace for my own. I would have Peace for them all.
Peace, after all...just a step away from Love.

Thursday, July 2, 2020

Happy Canada Day 2020

We wish our friends to the south, North, East and West, the continuing joy and Friendship that is the Canadian Spirit.... Covid, be damned.

And now....a word about "Nunavut.":

The outbreak by the numbers (as of 9:00 a.m. Wednesday, May 27, 2020):

  • Globally: 5,615,689 cases  |  2,307,901 recovered  |  351,077 deceased
  • Canada: 86,647 cases  |  45,339 recovered  |  6,639 deceased
  • British Columbia: 2,541 cases  |  2,122 recovered  |  161 deceased
  • Alberta: 6,901 cases  |  6,048 recovered  |  139 deceased
  • Saskatchewan: 634 cases  |  549 recovered  |  8 deceased
  • Manitoba: 292 cases  |  269 recovered  |  7 deceased
  • Ontario: 26,191 cases  |  19,958 recovered  |  2,123 deceased
  • Quebec: 48,598 cases  |  14,999 recovered  |  4,139 deceased
  • New Brunswick: 122 cases  |  120 recovered
  • Nova Scotia: 1,052 cases  |  976 recovered  |  59 deceased
  • Prince Edward Island: 27 cases  |  27 recovered
  • Newfoundland and Labrador: 260 cases  |  255 recovered  |  3 deceased
  • Yukon: 11 cases  |  11 recovered
  • Northwest Territories: 5 cases  |  5 recovered
  • Nunavut: 0 cases
  • Trenton (CFB quarantine): 13 cases

Sunday, May 31, 2020

From Whence Upon Whose Shores We Dream Cometh Do and Be Done

It is a surety, within two orbs like mine, (to remind me, in seeing
That I must always consider myself a part of things Greater),
A Vision of such Beyond
That I am given a gentle time to surmise and wander
Just within
Reach if its
Art,
Grafted Affection amidst
Realized Breath,
Little, but Humble, 
Gazing Up in
Hope and
Harbour. 

Monday, May 4, 2020

just released - THROW ANOTHER LOG ON THE FIRE - Dawn M. Nevills

Just released -

Number 1 on the Top Jazz Artists List for Reverb Nation.

Track No. 1 - THROW ANOTHER LOG ON THE FIRE - Dawn M. Nevills

https://www.reverbnation.com/scm/26965-chart-topping-jazz-artists?slot_id=93197

..............Take THAT, Covid-19......

                                                        ...my timing leaves something to be desired....Sigh.
                                                                                     Oh well. 
                                                          ..... call me a helpful diversion........ Wink.


Tuesday, April 21, 2020

Doggedly Determined

He felt the tongue in his right ear before he heard the laughter, and reached up his hand, just as she swung up and out of his reach.

"Hello, Mr. Horrible Man", she stated merrily, eluding his grasp, running around the bench, and sliding in beside his right hand, with which he was wiping the spit from his ear.

"Yech, you've given me the willies", he said, not minding, really, and scrubbing at his ear.

"I know; for a second you thought I'd slipped in a slug, like that horrible episode on Star Trek everyone remembers, and shivers about", she sighed, pleased with herself.

"My personal favourite, gross-out wise," she intoned, ecstatically. He rolled his eyes.

"So; who have I defended you from today, in absentia?" She grinned at him, rubbed his nose with hers, drew back and crossed her eyes at him. "I'm exhausted, sticking up for you so often."

"I've never seen anyone get in so many arguments before", she said, mildly. "And really, when you've just been trying to do something nice." She sighed. "I'm sorry; it's all my fault, really. Had I not been all worried and expressed a need,  you would have listened to someone else, and approached it differently. Now all they can do collectively is try and ding you for not being generous enough in a specific WAY. How AWFUL for them that the generosity wasn't as SPECIFIC as had been hoped....the poor, bored things. It seems they detest the heroic. Not HALF as selfrighteous to wax rhapsodic about, as the villainous." She leered at him, closing one eye, like a pirate. "Ar; did ye buy me me new undies, loik I asked of ye?"

He burst out laughing.

"You are so incredibly odd", he said, breathing out. "I have no idea why I listen to you."

"Because you love making me happy," she stated, flatly. "I'm going with that, for now. It makes me feel incredibly vindicated, in the face of world controversy." She smiled enigmatically. "Pissers haven't got any bombs to crow about. I love it."

"Well, I have to go now", she sighed. She tipped her head to one side, eyeing him up and down.

"You look very cute in an annoyed way, you know." She grinned.

"Thank you so much for making me happy today", she said, softly. She ran her right index finger along his temple, gently, and along his cheek. The she kissed his left eye - and slipped her tongue in his left ear briefly, laughing as she slid off the bench and stood up.

"Yech" he said, smiling, but not really minding again, very much, at all.
He opened his eyes, looking up.

She was gone. Again. He smiled, just a little.

"See you soon, emoji", he said, softly, to the sky.

Thursday, April 16, 2020

The Stuff of Dreams

Peace. I would have peace for my Friends.

I would have Peace for their darkeyed babies - their sky-eyed babies, too, dreaming softly of a star-filled sky far away from the wretched ground, the reeking puddles, the squalor, the shrieking.

I would have peace for the pang of hunger, the stab of thirst, the anguished hearts languishing and bereft, believing themselves Forgotten.

I would have peace for the Angry women hearts, whose mother-love knows no bounds, no borders, no language -  save eyes and whimpers, seen and heard.
They are Global Parents; global Parent hearts, speaking all languages, loving all names for God, clasping each others' hands in shared grief.

I would have Peace for these Women; Peace for their injured Men, their Lost Lovers, their Anguished, Passionate Longing other Halves, and their stolen Babies;
I would have Peace for my own.
I would have Peace for them all.

Peace....the step before Love.


by Dawn M. Nevills
             originally written Dec. 9, 2020 in response to an outbreak of cholera in refugee camps.

Saturday, March 21, 2020

Art of Love

Whereupon these two old loves, clinging, held each other's arms.
In the Tuscany sun, their eyes reflected many years;
All the fresh baked bread, juice of autumn's plums, and grapes, sweet
Running with the life and blood of earth and Love ruminating in their gaze, connected,
fighting against the block of breath that smashed, demon-like, the shared breath,
The wild and winsome laughter, the Star-filled sky of kisses, viewed
At Day's end, the will and work of life, fulfilled.
Each sought the source-of-word; brushed softly against the lips of utterance;
Pressed and sought the sudden surge of Other Half, Realized;
Embraced
Exquisite Completion:
Fiercely Lived.

Carbon Dated

If all the undulations of life could shadow lovers
Then the crags of the mountains, the furrowing clouds in the sky, the bursting struggle of petal
Would be our sighs, realized.

The desert winds - our anger at a momentary ill, passed;
The torrent waters of an Indian Ocean storm, our momentary malcontent, fused and swirling;
The trident Tigress, flowing, all panacea and murmur, ebbing into and around a dusted Being.
Rising skyward, we would remember our Falling, weeping, but Understood.
The God Love, Remembered, in our Reverence to Construction, Reaching,
Our Reverence, Preserved within its Angled Sights: Pharoah, humbled to dust by Death.

Only, there is Now, My Love.
Now, when the intricacy of Art that is Body yearns for its Sought, we Blend;
And, as the water ebbs, we Move, Found, in an exquisite, shared Breath,
Joy, Found; ache, soothed; surge, vent and bloom and spark shot Joy
Realized in an
Endless sky of
Us.




Breathed Into

The rhythm of this moment is your heart, beating.
Your breath against my face gives testament to life, and it is enough for me.
Expelled, it will suffice as a testament to all my strivings, all my warnings, all my yearnings, all my moans
In the dark, of stop and go, back and obey, heed and understand. Your breath is enough.

If, after death, I turn my face, to see an argument, a spark, a smile, an annoyance
I can face this. Only, breathe.

Then all the imagined steps I have danced, seconds I have whispered "life, my Love", into
The night
Have swirled amongst the Universe, and found
The Desire of Ages.

Thursday, March 19, 2020

Hey 19 - post revisionist

Far from the madding crowd,
I have a moment to use
Wisely,
Consider carefully,
Use personally,
Live
gratefully.

Thursday, March 12, 2020

In Praise of my hero, Shakespeare (simple elogy) (whilst enthroned) ...a poem by Dawn M. Nevills

When, in times of sad restraint, my Quill does rise and shake
itself upon yon waiting page (that now is NOT so quiet and dour),
My mind - - (awake amidst the sleeping crowd) --
Does stir, and then -- oh then! --my eyes, (quite misted) do
Behold
Sweet words, that flow like lines of laughing gold
Upon the waiting page.
What? Two pages? One is merry, one is wary
(Lest the steady flow, in its restraint, become too Merry)
As the words, in their great comfort, succor, (in their way),
A mind alight with words of Play.
As fingers fly, the winged travails of (reminders of the tests
Of greater things than simple womens' tasks, which do beset
Those same with consternation) this respite of the league,
Betimes, does prove that cleanly rhymes are more to
Our like. And what of it? Who is wont to say, in such a day,
that, though to read be such a boon, such simple hands
Do shame the best!
And why (amidst such wondrous egos, the likes of which do
Strut and, cock-like, exhude with remonstrance, the lofty praise
Of those, and these, and mine, and we's) write?
Still, sprightly, washing, (freely scoffing), gently doffing
Feathered plumes, which tremble with
Guided wind, and
Dryly (just), blinking under a warm and chuckling sun,
Do float, (nymph-like) and wave, moretime, like
Heavenly robed;
All the more at ease, (replete, betide) with mirth of hard, wood
Com Fort.

...published in "Rock Woman at Rest" by Dawn M. Nevills - copyright 2005 iuniverse

Sunday, March 8, 2020

International Women's Day, 2020

On this International Women's Day, I'd like to do something unexpected:

I would like to thank all of the men in my life who have brought me to this point.

There have been many in my life thus far: wonderful examples, struggling examples, strong examples, confused examples, giving examples, brave examples.....all of you have made me more aware, in some way, of what it is to be a woman. Grandfathers, fathers, uncles, brothers, cousins, friends, bosses, lovers, coworkers, leaders, followers, service providers, musicians, artists, creators, doctors, lawyers, businessmen, farmers, bakers, working men, white collar men, busdrivers, soldiers, sailors, tough guys, soft spoken and steel-eyed guys, doctors, scientists...strivers, stragglers….earnest, seeking men, and arrogant, thoughtless men......lonely, anxious men, and happy, family, comforting men....thoughtless, selfless men, and brash, attention-seeking men.....world problem solvers, and world problem makers...….(although that last, less so, to be sure...) - without you there would be no me, you see.

Thank you for loving us, for those who do the majority of the time. Thank you for remembering that our functions make our functions different, sometimes, in approach - but not weaker, and no less earnest and striving. This should never make you feel inferior. It should always make you feel accompanied in life, in whatever capacity your life takes you, and in whatever manner this company, this effort, and this outlook has made an influence on the way and manner in which you move through life.

Thank you for seeking my input and my outlook, when your own did not seem quite whole to you; not quite complete; not quite the whole picture, and you could not quite fathom what was missing.  Thank you for letting me complement your vision. Thank you for understanding that I have my own, and that you are always a part of it - but not the only thing. This is the way I am, by nature.  

I am your other half: your argument's consideration, your joy's secret delight at having delighted (even when you don't want to admit it); your reason for striving an extra hour, seeking that admiration and wanting to know that you have had that extra strength, that extra impossible need to try harder -  for those you love; your friend, even when your desires do not extend to me, although I mourn that this is so, in an old, old way, born of all that is need and concern and love, without judgement, when you say it is so, and I balk at the idea of competing, finally, and simply will not. When it does not involve this aspect of life - because it is far from the only one - I am joyous that my company has meaning and purpose and joy to you, even and especially without the physical. At what I hope is an effort-preserved 55 - but only so I can still do things, and accomplish them with the shell with which I do so, and not so much vanity, to be honest, as perhaps I should have  - I understand these matters better than when I was youthful, and all was passion and heat and children's laughter, and urgency; after ten years away and a distinct distaste for my own natural functions, I have learned a different stillness, a desire for your thoughts; a need for your friendship and an acceptance of my equality, because I truly feel up to it, having done it for so long, without you. Now I cannot accept one or the other: if I cannot have both I will have none of the one, and only the other. I would have both, at heart, but will not compromise with the lesser and the least; the debasement of my self as if I am not there, when I am, yearning. I have learned that those of you who shame me for these feelings never really loved me. I hope you will love someone else, more deeply.

To be certain, to have had this example has made for some difficult expectations in one's own life, but the time without it has made the time with it, however brief, more treasured.

Thank you for the beauty and the purposeful, helpful efforts and results you have brought to my life.

This is the way and means of things, when expectation is for a desire that is less vessel, and more expressive completion; there is no emptying....only exhausted relief at the found, spooned into and of, resting: joy at knowingness and companion, discussion and volley, relief at teasing and reminder and gentle nudge towards better...less spiral into the empty of self that is suddenly filled.

Thank you for remembering me with the simplest of things, and the most complex; thank you for understanding my anger - and helping other men understand it - when you were not who you wanted to be, and related to me in the worst possible way - and understanding and accepting blame for the end of it, when I told you that this was so, and insisted upon the better. Through this, you learned to appreciate me, and when you did not, your life was lessened in my absence, until you did, and I truly wished that it could have been different. For those whose lives do not include me - as I speak of "being woman" - thank you for looking for me, still, but finding, in those women around you, many of the qualities you have suddenly become more aware of, more grateful for, less entitled to, in your own mind, than you may have thought in the past. We are both the better for it, I assure you. We are all the better for it, I assure you. We are we, then. You must keep trying, if you can. Let me help you, when you can't.

Thank you for understanding when and why it is preferable to be without you, in ways and means that demand a different sort of man from you, even when you balk against this evolving in yourself, when this is so. You will know me in a very different, delightfully stimulating way, if only you would allow yourself to develop this quality, this bond, this sharing of fragilities, and melding of strengths, this different part of you, that is more than making another you.

But today....thank you for celebrating me in your life, in other's lives, and in life. You cannot imagine how much love this makes me feel, in the knowing....but all the rest of the days might contain the continued efforts, and the continued feelings, if you take the time to continue to notice them. I will renew my own with an earnest heart, because you have done so.

We will be we, forever.

Happy International Women's Day, 2020 - a year of visions and hopes and efforts, realized.    Thank you, men.




Friday, March 6, 2020

Shadowed Dining - an Unlikely Love Story By Dawn M. Nevills

…..There she was, standing in the halflight of the grey afternoon. He stood in the protective shadow of the building's portico, watching her silently.

     He remembered when they were young and silly, striding through the street, arguing with each other about everything: they rarely agreed on anything. She had driven him crazy; so crazy he could rarely have her out of his sight. At some point, they might stop arguing, and then life would suddenly become less vital; less alive - less filled with opposite viewpoints. He knew that she mostly disagreed with him on purpose, just to get a rise out of him. It was never really aggravating, for some reason; just something he expected...something that kept him in a perpetual state of boxer mode. He was, she realized, a hopeless instigator of hopefulness.

     He had not realized it had been so long since they had seen each other.

     He drew back into the building's shadows, watching her discreetly, scanning the streets for him. He laughed quietly to himself. She looked totally aggravated. He found that fact, alone, hilarious enough to continue doing it, and he stood rooted to the spot, in spite of himself.

     "Damn it", she said, aloud. "I will look a total mess, you damned man," she said softly. She sighed. "Just once I would like NOT to look like I have been through a small hurricane, or mistaken for a cactus, or called a "crazy wetback", before I see you."

     She bit her bottom lip, chewing on it absentmindedly. He was rarely, late, usually, which drove her crazy. She could carefully plan for 45 minutes before actually leaving to arrive somewhere...and alas; every known transportation vessel in the western hemisphere mysteriously found its way into her path - at least enough so as to make her at least five minutes late. She could leave a full day early, and - God help her - a damned plane would land in the freeway in front of the car, in an emergency weather manoever.

She had become somewhat resigned to it...like when she was a little girl, and had had to wear a dress on a Sunday, and a bow scotchtaped to her head, like a unicorn, so she could selfidentify as a girl, until finally, nearing 4, she had grown some hair.

"I a girl!", she had blurted out, indignantly, to her tortured mother of the bow, wondering, yet again, why it wasn't glaringly obvious.

"Well then!", said her father, clearing his throat.

Time had changed little, matter and atmosphere-wise. The second she stepped out the door, all manner of dirt suddenly flew, en masse, like invading locusts, or a congregated group of minute space aliens moving towards a strange, strutting magnet, and affixed themselves to her, leech-like. Three minutes later, she would turn, walk back through the door, and be accused of "rolling in the gloaming", with all of the other kids on the street - all of whom were boys, of course, who managed to stay clean. They LOVED Sundays; they could stand there, wait for her to step out of the door, and point at her strange, momentary clean glow, before the dirt cloud settled in upon her, like Schleprock. Then, much like Joan of Arc, bravely she would raise her hands in front of her....to no avail. Hanging her head in martyred service to fashion, she would return again, inside....defeated. Adulthood had changed nothing.

He looked to see if she had a smudge on her nose, from pressing it up against the window. On a murky day, this was sometimes the only sure point of real recognition.

A predictably smudge-nosed woman had been one of the sustaining presences in his life, he had realized several years back, oddly.

Often it took Herculean self-control from to control his mirth at the sight - which sometimes even he could not muster - especially when she became enraged, after he suddenly burst out laughing uncontrollably, in the middle of an argument, for no apparent reason, just as she was waxing full tilt in a moment of studied and stentorian, fullthroated, literary rhapsody. Then her eyes would narrow, as he gently leaned forward, licked his index finger.....and rubbed the end of her nose with it.

She had shouted at him the first time had had done it.

"What do I look like? A push button, dammit? You are making FUN of me! Stop that, this instant!"

It was his own fault, though, for always meeting her where they never cleaned the windows. It never failed; she would lean up against one, looking for him, and take away a good print, every single time.

Once he had become so amused by it, he had simply stopped arguing with her, and rubbed his nose against hers, until it rubbed off the offending reminder that she was late again, and that she had been looking for him in the wrong direction.

     He had been sitting at a table, three seats over, for twenty minutes before she arrived, this time, and he watched her stride in, his hand over his mouth, admiring her breathless collision with both the door, AND the edge of the table, with barely disguised mirth. Tucking her purse strap into her pocket, she had then gently included the edge of the tablecloth, and, turning suddenly, had taken half of the table settings with her, in a kind of graceful - if somewhat abrupt - twirl, just at their gazes had locked, to the sound of falling silverware......

She had made a strange, low, growling noise in the base of her throat, as the tinkling subsided, narrowing her eyes, and delicately pulling the edge of the cloth from her pocket, as every face in the place gazed at her feet in total silence, rooted as they were, like cement, to the floor. Her face - suddenly visible and tingling in the afternoon sunlight - had deepened to a deep rose, high upon her cheeks, suffusing her head with a surge of heat, and light, and hue. She closed her eyes, imagining herself a stoplight, with great success. The grunt metamorphosized into a kind of almost gargle, pleasantly higher, like rushing water escaping a sink drain.

"I....ah.....er....yaaaaa…..youaaaaa…..ump." The faces looked at her, in strange awe.

"Mu....yee-ow....hooo….hmmmmmm…..", she continued, decidedly. She suddenly shut her lips tightly, making the gargling noise again. He coughed quietly to himself, restrainedly, resigned to it.

She bent to retrieve the cutlery, and a waiter bolted into action.

"Madame", he said, bending down at the precise moment that she was beginning to rise from the floor where she had been stooping. Their heads collided magnificently, knocking him to the floor, backwards, in a move that could NEVER, he realized, EVER be choreographed with quite such perfection, even if he HAD tried to do it. The waiter's head then connected beautifully with the lap of a large woman who had just pushed her chair back from the table, where she had been sitting amiably chatting with her lunch companion. With a suddenness too practiced to feign, she calmly stroked his forehead, like a cat.

"Hello", she said pleasantly. "Would you mind bringing us some more tea, do you think?'

The waiter gazed up at her, upside down. Feeling part of a larger moment of uncomplaining ambience with the world, she kissed his nose, imprisoned as he was, in her very ample lap, with gentle encouragement.

She smiled at him. "Thank you so much!", she said, anticipating the tea, as she hooked her hands behind his shoulders, and gave him a mighty shove upright, as if this sort of thing happened every day. The waiter sprang back up like a blow-up clown on its way back up from a punching bout, nonplussed. He stared at her, moving away from the generously proportioned woman, from his now stalwart and standing position, righted, and extended a hand gallantly towards her, like a Spanish ballroom dancer.

From her position on the floor, where she leaned back on both elbows, gazing up at him with genuine admiration, she admired the adroit coup-d'état of extrication which had taken place before her, between he and his Rubinesque rescuer. From between the ample thighs of compassion, a real miracle of movement had occurred.

"Arrrrrr…...ya......ah....there you go....."

He sounded strangely like a pirate, staring at the smudge on her nose with a small frown. She brushed back the crumbs from her shoulders, in as dignified a manner as she could muster, as his eyes never left her face, and she lookd down, crossing her eyes towards her nose, understanding what was there, at once. She scrubbed at her nose with the edge of the tablecloth still clutched tightly in her hand, as the rest of the dishes followed the cutlery in a perfect, final, crescendo of fine dining demise.

He couldn't help it: he laughed out loud, then, as she very gently and unhurriedly ignored the dishes all around her, examined the edge of the tablecloth for nose dirt, dropped it again beneath the glower of the dancing waiter, and patted the material absently, with a kind of oddly reassuring awkwardness as it softly drifted down, and back over the edge of the table - patting at more air, really, than cloth...….the waiter, silenced by the crescendo, could find no actual words befitting the shard carnage. She stopped patting, staring back at him, and jammed her hands into her pockets, in case she disrupted anything else. She looked back at him.

"I'm here", she said, unnecessarily.

She sighed, rolling her eyes towards the ceiling. She was late, sadly. And she had really, really tried.

The waiter, relenting, sashayed gently towards her, crunching through the dishes, which suddenly sounded very LOUD. Lifting her foot, haltingly, she tried to step around the combination of remaining cutlery, and the large shards around it, unsuccessfully. Loud crackles sounded from beneath her feet.

One elderly lady, sitting nearby, and watching pleasantly, could not stop herself. Impressed, she rose, clapping, in an inexplicable Ionesco-like movement, and then sat back down, again, abruptly, in a gentle moment of forgetfulness in which she had forgotten where she was, but suddenly didn't care. With a smile on her face, her daughter patted her clapping hands gently, lifted a soup spoon towards her mouth with love, and made a clucking noise of coaching towards good manners and recovered dishes, somewhat hopelessly. The elderly woman leaned forward, dutifully eating the soup from the spoon like a small, happy child, sighing.

Staring at the elderly woman sunnily eating her soup, she unjammed her hands from her pockets, turned her face slightly to the side...and smiled at him through the restaurant, scrambling up and proceeding towards him in the same halting, sideways step that the waiter had used, with intent.

The closest table of silent diners suddenly clutched the edge of the tablecloth, protectively, imagining their lunches flying through the air, with earnest concern. One of the women seated there stared up at her, wonderingly, as she passed, holding her free hand over her uneaten soup, like a shield. All three heads turned, as if on a swivel, as she passed them.

She crunched through the remaining dishes, making a slightly pained, tool-time noise, and scrunched her face into an origami cartography pie chart, as one of the shards pierced the bottom of her shoe.

She hobbled up to his table, hopping on one foot, doing a goose step with the other, offendingly pierced, shoe. He leaned forward, suddenly, as she reached the table's edge, finally, and picked up her foot, pulled out the plate shard, held it up like a thorn, handed it to her, and she raised it up, distractedly, like a communion wafer, before depositing it into her pocket.

"Um....thanks," she said, moving her nose into a crinkle, and sniffing slightly. She blew back a piece of napkin out of her face, in what felt like overkill. "You....um.....saw."

A whoosh of air escaped his nose, and a kind of cough/snort, along with it. She closed one eye, and moved her mouth into an almost grimace, at the noise. He quickly turned it into a cough, shaking his head, and covered his hand with his fist, completing the noise ritual, as he bent forward, trying to catch his breath.

The restaurant, as if suddenly permitted to react, erupted into laughter.

The waiter, carrying a tray out the door, and startled by the sudden roar, dropped the tray of entrees through the half-open swinging doors of the kitchen, and a muffled, cursing series of outbursts drifted out from within, as he covered his forehead with his hands, defeated, left the tray where had had dropped it, cast a concerned look in her direction, and retreated into its depths.

"Hungry?" he said, finally, a bit weakly, having caught his breath at last. "The chicken fettuccini is great. And.....ah....yours is still warm." He pointed to the plate from across from him. Steam rose from it.

He rose from where he was seated, moved around to the other side of the table, pulled the chair back three feet, stepped over to where she was standing, slipped her purse from her arm, placed it underneath the table beside where her chair would be, flipped up the tablecloth (as it settled over her lunch like a blanket), and pushed her into the place under the table, as if she was in a wheelchair, while she gripped the edge of the chair arms. He stepped back around, sat down at his chair, flipped back the tablecloth, and the gentle flip of accompanying sauced landed squarely in her left eye.

She wiped at it quietly, with her pointer finger, stuck it into her mouth, and made an appreciative "mmm" of approval, before peeling the fettuccini-sauce-glued tablecloth from her right breast. Beneath the soft silk of the simple white blouse she had worn to impress him with her dress sense, she now suddenly appeared to be breastfeeding.

She ignored his admiring glance at her nipple responding to heat, twirled a fork through the noodles, adroitly popped the sauced goodness into her mouth, and nodded in his direction, swallowing.

"Nice flick", she said. He smiled at her, chewing his noodles like gum, just to annoy her (she hated it when people left their mouths open while they ate) and gestured towards her glass, and the bottle of wine on the table. She leaned back away from the table, eyeing it warily, and nodded, in preparation and pour permission, lest he pour it into her lap.

"Just half," she said, sighing, and looking at him suspiciously. "I'm already pretty much a mess, and I expect I don't need to SOUND like it, too, at this point."

He poured her half a glass, with a flourish, only flicking a tiny bit on to her sleeve - more like affectionate wine spittle, really - and they continued their meal, uneventfully, saying nothing further. Sadly, she noticed that he didn't get ANY on himself. She looked towards the ceiling again, to see if a mad stray air current had collided with the path of the wine spittle he had shared on to her left arm.

A fly peered back at her from one of the hanging plant leaves there, waiting to spring on to her plate. She looked back at him, and then back at the fly again, quickly, in case they appeared to have a pact with each other to destroy her appetite, or eggs landed on to her pasta, from space, too microscopic for her to catch in time, before they melded with her pasta, and were lost forever.

Tormented thusly, he winked at her every few minutes, and she made little squinting glare looks at him, as he suddenly moved as if to fling his noodles at her. She raised her fork at him, squinting a warning, then placed her fork on her plate, and raised a glass of wine to her lips, appreciatively. Thank God: Nature's antiseptic. She had watched the bottle being opened: no spit, leftovers, urine or germs of any kind could possibly have made it into the bottle in that brief span of time. The wine - praise the Most High - was safe.

"Guess what we're taking with us, for dessert?" he said, mildly, swigging contentedly at his wine glass.

"Crème caramel?", she said, breathing out in exhausted expectation. Hopefully no one had licked the bowl, or stuck their finger into the mold, while making it. She sighed.

"Butterscotch pudding", he said, softly. "Perfect with outies." He licked his lips at her, exaggeratedly, smiling, quite pleased with himself, as she squirmed uncomfortably, the heat shooting into her face like a laser.

"I'll buy you a new blouse", he said, happily. "But only if I can watch you try it on, first." He winked.

"Perv", she retorted, curtly. She put her fork down, glaring at him. He laughed, waving at the waiter. The waiter, looking at him quizzically, walked into the door, head first. A shout erupted from inside of the kitchen again, as the waiter successfully went through it, this time, nursing his nose. It slammed into him on the back swing, stopping suddenly as it connected with his backside. His shriek ended when the cursing resumed from the inner sanctum of the kitchen.

He looked at her breasts, answering his own question.

"Confusingly, a generous 10, I think," he mused. He looked up at her, proud of himself. Her hair, he thought, was sticking straight up, where the fettuccini sauce had dried on it, after she had tried to wipe it out of her eye.

"......but nothing gets over those hips - except a 711!", he whispered at her, exaggeratedly, appreciating his own joke, and waving his hand in the air, like Groucho Marx. She choked on her wine. The woman at the table next to them shifted in her chair, and patted her throat, suddenly, seeking air.

"Stop this instant", she whispered back, mortified. He patted the table with his hand, laughing quietly.

"Ah yes: no hips like a ten year old boy, here."

She peered back at him, nearsightedly, her spectacles making her look like a slightly electrically shocked owl. Her hair was sticking up beside her eye again, like a fettuccini sauce sentry. He wet his index finger, leaned over the table, and mashed it back down on her head, beside her glasses, affectionately.

"Sorry about the sauce", he said, softly, grinning at her. "It'll be fun to suck on your hair, though."

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Dawn M. Nevills   - Final draft March 6, 2020      


Wednesday, February 5, 2020

Engine eared

What instantaneous touch creates a whirling world of "when", in an instant?

Blueprint and dogeared, no coda is silenced forever, waiting this still, upon a page.

Remembrance Day

And what of war? So many reasons - given, and received - for war, and its "Raison D'Etre":political, tribal, religious, social, financial, ethnic, geopolitical. At the time, so ardent the heart, so urgent the need, so desperate the time.....so quiet, so quick, and so stern the response. So convinced, always, of necessity, of freedom and betterment, (sometimes)rather than glory and glamour, lives are taken, and offered: lives which could have been led; lives which could have been lived; lives which could have been filled with love and laughter, excitement and hope, honourable effort, rewarded in the sensibilities of its results, both tangible and intangible. Alas...sanity and consideration were not enough. Opportunity for lives well-lived were stolen in moments of our worst towards each other....life, in its demands and incessant need, became - and become, for some - too daunting a task, too monotonous a responsibility, too difficult an effort, too frustrating for further discussion, further effort...further hope. The inabilities of those with power to lead in Possibility and Remembrance of wars past, result in the repeated sacrifice and death of the brave, the obedient, the desperate, the ardent, the trusting, and the hands of beauty, creation, shelter and healing, help and new horizons, are reduced to unending pain and hope's ending: we die. What we remember - not celebrate - on this day, is the Great Respect and the Great Gifts of lives which stopped in the midst of striving for the best in our hearts, to stop the terror of never being allowed to know its sweetness, and its grace, its wonder and its awe, for even a moment: no mornings of mist on a mountainside, no quiet evenings of the haunting serenade of a loon's call...no Monet, no sparkling breathless eyes on Christmas morning...no rest and recall, for all the joys of yesteryear. We shall never Forget, and those lives never lived, perhaps, as they might have been, will mean something new, and Real, for those who have yet to realize the privilege of that possibility. We shall Love, in a new, perhaps gentler way, and understand the word, afresh, even as we discover, anew, its complexities, and costs...... ........And War, like Hatred, will know its place - having been thwarted, yet again, by its Master:Love.

TESLA ... transporting you into the natural world

What every TESLA owner will probably know and feel, instinctively, but maybe never actually SAY...is that they have tangibly become part of a better way of transporting man into the natural world.

For all those who said it couldn't be done: yes, we can. As humans, Elon Musk's, and Tesla's, determined, methodical approach to a different way of "getting there" is proof positive that human beings can progress less destructively.

Way to go, Elon.

Can we find a way to make wheels out of recycled plastic, next? xo No pressure. Smile.

Tuesday, January 28, 2020

Soul Salve

If only I had had a sensibility of the senses gleaned, Tintern-like, from calmer studies,
When - mixed with the conflagrations of my youth, and other youths, I feared - outbursts of
Other fears threatened continuity,
I faltered.
Then - when my gentle heart could only reach out with my eyes, and water betrayed me - perhaps
I could have sought words,
Used words,
Molded words,
Picked up the words like soul-salve, seeking,
Patting the mysterious grief flowing and swirling around my world
Into
Calm.

Today, I will try again,
Accompanied.

Saturday, January 25, 2020

Sounds of Another Time and Plane Explained

Didjideroo, memory of thunder voices long ago, preserved.
When we draw again with eyes and sticks the trace star maps you showed us long ago,
Recalled to know of care, as you take your birds to the sky Home,
Reveal, at last,
Our Humility in preserving a
Moment.

Springtime Dream

So quiet and still, in the dark little work winter room where a small lamp is lit;
In quiet conversation the toil is gentle and prodigious, and gentle grey rain upon the
Sturdy roof softens season's reminders of icy Sleep.

I dreamed a springlit, tulip-brightened burst, there, tonight, my Love,
And closed my eyes to lay among it, nestling quietly amongst the perfumed stems:
I, some great bird with gentle tulip eggs, and we two, laughing,
"Springtime snails", you said, "Leaving a beauteous trail" - a gentle, bulb-burst, loving trail -
Of paint-brushed Art with Living things:

First, all curled and golden; scarlet lip and hearted; deep fuschia at days's end, morphed into violet, too;
And as the gleaming rays dipped tiredly, finally
The deepest royal-hued sky - each one -
Blending with the petal hearts, and dropped in an ordered, neat strewn path,
To tell a story of travelled love, inviting -
Breathless, buoyed, and brilliant we's
To relive us, in other Times and
Mad, Moving, More-Love
Moments,
Remembered.

Sunday, January 12, 2020

Teetering equations

x X y - w = 0

Today's algorithmic poetry. Serious stuff, genomers.

Tuesday, January 7, 2020

Today's Math

Forty times one thousand = forty thousand.

Expressed another way, :

40 X 1 X1,000 = 40,000.

Expressed another way:

40 people at one thousand dollars each, times 1,000 = 40,000.

Or....pie. Which is different.